Saturday, 21 April 2012
i did it! i broke the pain barrier. i went for a run. i feel like a totally different person. i have run the last two mornings (for 10 minutes each time). for a sporty fit regular exerciser, this post will seem very strange but i think a lot of us, especially mums, lose our exercise mojo, inclination, ability, and struggle os much ot get it back. i certainly did - about 5 years ago. i have no fitness and feel permanently guilty and moody and glum because i don't exercise. why does it have such a profound affect on us.. on me? i have little self-discipline so i'd rather coffee, wine or cigarettes as pick-me ups rather than exercise. but it was getting me down. after a particularly unhealthy week i felt rough and depressed and deeply lethargic, grumpy, angry and depressed for a week. and it affected my whole family and i hated myself for it. i could not drag myself out of bed in the morning and felt desperate to lie down and sleep all day. i knew something had to change. a couple of early nights and a couple of morning jogs made all the difference. why does it take me years to get up the courage to go for a 10 minute run? i know it will make me feel fabulous and happy, more patient, energetic and emotionally balanced and yet i suffer such inertia and inability to get on with it... it is an intense hurdle for me to do the first run. it makes no sense when the run is tiny and the benefits immense! well it's done now. and i feel like a different person and i'm thankful i managed to do it. let's see how long i can make it last?