Saturday 21 April 2012

run

i did it! i broke the pain barrier. i went for a run. i feel like a totally different person. i have run the last two mornings (for 10 minutes each time). for a sporty fit regular exerciser, this post will seem very strange but i think a lot of us, especially mums, lose our exercise mojo, inclination, ability, and struggle os much ot get it back. i certainly did - about 5 years ago. i have no fitness and feel permanently guilty and moody and glum because i don't exercise. why does it have such a profound affect on us.. on me? i have little self-discipline so i'd rather coffee, wine or cigarettes as pick-me ups rather than exercise. but it was getting me down. after a particularly unhealthy week i felt rough and depressed and deeply lethargic, grumpy, angry and depressed for a week. and it affected my whole family and i hated myself for it. i could not drag myself out of bed in the morning and felt desperate to lie down and sleep all  day. i knew something had to change. a couple of early nights and a couple of morning jogs made all the difference. why does it take me years to get up the courage to go for a 10 minute run? i know it will make me feel fabulous and happy, more patient, energetic and emotionally balanced and yet i suffer such inertia and inability to get on with it... it is an intense hurdle for me to do the first run. it makes no sense when the run is tiny and the benefits immense! well it's done now. and i feel like a different person and i'm thankful i managed to do it. let's see how long i can make it last?

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  1. It is hard to take that first run. I thought about it for ages too. I never really enjoyed running when I was younger, but plucked up the courage to give it a go, because I needed to do some exercise. I enjoy it now, but that's because I go slow and don't push it. And it does make me feel better, physically and mentally. It is hard to keep up the momentum though, still the more you do, the easier it will become - and you've got through the toughest part x

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    1. thank you! it is so hard to keep up the momentum. i've got out of the swing of it due to a crazy month but am determined to start again after a moody couple of days!! it's finding the time i find hard but even a really short run makes such a difference to my mental state!

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  2. Oh that's great you've gone running! You have inspired me! I think I'll go for a run in the morning! I've been meaning to get back running but haven't got round to it - yet!

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    1. it's so worth it. i find it very hard to start and keep up the momentum but am always so thank ful when i get off my butt and go for it - even for 10 minutes - it helps my mental state so much! i have got out of the habit this past month but after a couple of moody days am feeling the definite need to run again! let me know if you manage it and we can spur each other on!

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